A lot of weight. Probably the biggest and heaviest I’ve been. And I come in at a very miniature 4 ft 11 so that weight has not got many places to go. So let’s just say I’m feeling very weeble like...anyone born after 2000, google it. Now before you all come at me with ‘you… Continue reading I’ve put on weight…
Are you one of those annoying morning people? I am. I never used to be though. When you decide that waking up with a pounding head, a mouth as dry as the Gobi desert (Sahara is so overrated) and eyes that resemble those of Ren from Ren and Stimpy, is no longer fun; it changes… Continue reading Good Morning
I was mostly drunk. This year, to save me from tears I’ll give it a try being sober. No, but really...this year is going to be different for so many reasons. Clearly there’s the obvious festive corona in the air but that’s actually not having a massive impact on my Christmas. This year not only… Continue reading Last Christmas…
Do you know what’s worse than being a single woman in her 40s who lives at home with her parents, has mental health issues and an alcohol problem? A single woman in her 40s who lives at home with her parents, has mental health issues, an alcohol problem AND is Indian. I mean when I… Continue reading The Asian Equation
Last Monday I got up at the glorious time of 4am, packed up the car and set off for a week in sunny Scotland. Yes, sunny! We didn’t have a single drop of rain the entire week! Also we being, me and my parents. It was to be a week of firsts; my first sober… Continue reading A week of firsts
Today, a friend posted on Instagram about her recent struggles and how her mental health has deteriorated enough to warrant new medication. She was already taking anti anxiety meds and how now been put on an anti-depressant of sorts; I know this because I’ve been prescribed both in the past. Anyway having only known her… Continue reading Mental illness, medication and me.
Yes it’s a word. Look it up if you don’t believe me. Okay don’t, it’s clearly not a word but I couldn’t decide between proud and empowered so I went with both. I can’t remember the last time I felt genuinely proud of myself. Not just an ‘I did good’ or pat on the back… Continue reading Em-proud
So did I, so did I... And I am, but doesn’t mean I don’t feel the not so good days. And now I really feel them. Like intensely. Without alcohol I feel everything. This weekend something felt off. I didn’t start my day as I usually do. There was no meditating, no connecting with my… Continue reading But I thought you were doing better?
“If you’re brave enough to say goodbye. Life will reward you with a new hello” ⁃ Paul Coelho It’s been 164 days since we were last together. Feels longer doesn’t it? I wasn’t sure whether I should write this letter. I was scared of the feelings it would bring up. They say that there is… Continue reading Dear alcohol
“Social connection is such a basic feature of human experience that when we are deprived of it, we suffer.” ~ Leonard Mlodinow No, I don’t mean send me a message. I mean, actually connect. Let me explain... As a species we are not meant to live like lone wolves, we are hardwired for connection. The… Continue reading Connect with me