Are you one of those annoying morning people? I am. I never used to be though. When you decide that waking up with a pounding head, a mouth as dry as the Gobi desert (Sahara is so overrated) and eyes that resemble those of Ren from Ren and Stimpy, is no longer fun; it changes… Continue reading Good Morning
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Last Christmas…
I was mostly drunk. This year, to save me from tears I’ll give it a try being sober. No, but really...this year is going to be different for so many reasons. Clearly there’s the obvious festive corona in the air but that’s actually not having a massive impact on my Christmas. This year not only… Continue reading Last Christmas…
Life in an Elevator
Doesn’t it suck when you make friends with people and there’s a really good connection. You’ve even declared them bridesmaid or best man at your imaginary wedding and then suddenly they start drifting away and your standing on the river bank waving them off with a hanky. I’ve never been very good at losing mates.… Continue reading Life in an Elevator
The Asian Equation
Do you know what’s worse than being a single woman in her 40s who lives at home with her parents, has mental health issues and an alcohol problem? A single woman in her 40s who lives at home with her parents, has mental health issues, an alcohol problem AND is Indian. I mean when I… Continue reading The Asian Equation
A week of firsts
Last Monday I got up at the glorious time of 4am, packed up the car and set off for a week in sunny Scotland. Yes, sunny! We didn’t have a single drop of rain the entire week! Also we being, me and my parents. It was to be a week of firsts; my first sober… Continue reading A week of firsts
Mental illness, medication and me.
Today, a friend posted on Instagram about her recent struggles and how her mental health has deteriorated enough to warrant new medication. She was already taking anti anxiety meds and how now been put on an anti-depressant of sorts; I know this because I’ve been prescribed both in the past. Anyway having only known her… Continue reading Mental illness, medication and me.
The good, the bad and the…decide for yourself.
Are you thinking about network marketing? Have you been approached by people to join their team and company so you can build a business and become financially free? Or maybe you’re already involved but new to the game and are trying to suss things out. Getting an honest account about network marketing can be difficult.… Continue reading The good, the bad and the…decide for yourself.
And it was all going so well…
Don’t you just hate it when things are going so well and all of a sudden, out of nowhere life, the universe, whatever you want to call it puts a stop to it? And it’s even worse when you have no explanation for it? Like, I seriously don’t have time for this bullshit. This week… Continue reading And it was all going so well…
A positively positive pivot.
I don’t even know where to begin this post. I’m so full of gratitude, excitement, high energy vibes. All that really really good shit. I think I’ll just let the word vomit come out and not over think it. So here goes, get the bucket ready.... At the end of this month I will be… Continue reading A positively positive pivot.
Who’s in charge here?
“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all” ~ Oscar Wilde No, but really. Who? We are born. And then we die. And that time in between, somebody else is always in charge! Who the fuck decided that?! I mean, I can see that having a more experienced… Continue reading Who’s in charge here?
Why aren’t you crying anymore?
Because the goal posts have changed. Because the further along I get on this journey, the more I’m realising something. It’s all bullshit. Everything. *Buckle up, this is a long one* All that we learn. All that we are told. All that we believe. All that we think is right or wrong. All bigger than… Continue reading Why aren’t you crying anymore?
Em-proud
Yes it’s a word. Look it up if you don’t believe me. Okay don’t, it’s clearly not a word but I couldn’t decide between proud and empowered so I went with both. I can’t remember the last time I felt genuinely proud of myself. Not just an ‘I did good’ or pat on the back… Continue reading Em-proud
But I thought you were doing better?
So did I, so did I... And I am, but doesn’t mean I don’t feel the not so good days. And now I really feel them. Like intensely. Without alcohol I feel everything. This weekend something felt off. I didn’t start my day as I usually do. There was no meditating, no connecting with my… Continue reading But I thought you were doing better?
Be a voice, not an echo
I’m trying to listen to my intuitive self more these days and it’s been telling me to speak my truth about this, so here goes... It’s coming up to a year since I joined the network marketing industry, specifically Arbonne. Before I go any further I just want to say I have no regrets for… Continue reading Be a voice, not an echo
A day in the life of… Part II
So we left off just after breakfast. Where I attempted to redeem myself with nutrition supplements and vitamins after my cheesy beans on toast...god that was good. Now a little bit about my home life before I go on. As previously mentioned I live at home with my parents. This is something that for a… Continue reading A day in the life of… Part II
Authenticity or attention seeking ?
If I’m honest, I don’t even know anymore. I guess it’s subjective? I could post a picture on here where I think I look nice and some would think I’m trying to grab attention. I suppose I am in a way, but not necessarily because I’m all ‘look at me, like my photo’ but mostly… Continue reading Authenticity or attention seeking ?
Excite your mouth with a bit of Boucha
As you may already know, earlier this year I decided to part ways with my dear friend alcohol. This isn’t the first time I’ve abstained but I feel like this will be the last. So, with this being a permanent lifestyle change I thought I’d better give myself some cushioning for the future occasions where… Continue reading Excite your mouth with a bit of Boucha
Connect with me
“Social connection is such a basic feature of human experience that when we are deprived of it, we suffer.” ~ Leonard Mlodinow No, I don’t mean send me a message. I mean, actually connect. Let me explain... As a species we are not meant to live like lone wolves, we are hardwired for connection. The… Continue reading Connect with me
Time’s Up Babe
People: What do you want to do later in life? Me: I don’t really see myself as the career type. I just want to have lots of kids, maybe 5 and be an awesome Mum! That really was my answer, because that’s what I wanted. I thought it’d be much easier than climbing the career… Continue reading Time’s Up Babe
Brené Brown said…
God love this woman! She’s so freaking incredible. Like I would legit use her words in an argument. “You don’t know what you’re talking about bitch. Brené Brown said...so don’t you come over here, getting all up in my grill”. I’ve just watched her Netflix show ‘Call to Courage’ for the 3rd time. Today I’m… Continue reading Brené Brown said…
A Sober Education
Who’d have thought? Not a drop of alcohol has passed my lips in 151 days. I am pretty proud of myself but not because of my incredible willpower or determination, because to be honest it’s not really been like that for me. Not this time around anyway. I can’t really explain why but I’ve not… Continue reading A Sober Education