WTF am I doing?

In 4 weeks, I’ll be arriving at Heathrow Airport T5 ahead of my 9.5 hour flight to Mumbai Chhatrapati Shivaji Airport. But before we get onto that, the ‘WTF am I doing’ is referring to the fact that this website page looks shockingly shit and I don’t know how to get it to look even the slightest bit aesthetically pleasing.

I spent the best part of yesterday updating it with my new branding only to find that when I posted my first blog post it reverted back to the WordPress template. So, I’ve given up for now and until I can get my website guy (my, soon to be brother-in-law) on the case you’ll just have to put up with it looking like this! 🙈

Back to the other thing… So yeah, India. The last time I was there was day one of my sober life. I made the decision on the flight over in February 2020, that once I landed, that would be it. No. More. Booze!

And that one decision was the start of a series of decisions which has brought me here. Here being, heading back to India for a month for a little R&R before I head even further southeast, to the land of the kiwi (the flightless bird not the fruit) and home to Bilbo Baggins – New Zealand!

I just want to rewind a little bit before I explain why this is a big deal. After I quit drinking, I did a fuck load of work on myself and realised that the reason I’d spent so long living what felt like the wrong life, was because I wasn’t living the one meant for me. Like most people I was searching for happiness and fulfilment in all the wrong places and was constantly coming up empty.

It wasn’t until I started asking myself some big questions, got myself some coaching support and started looking at things from a different perspective that things began to change. I retrained so I could start my own coaching business helping woman who much like myself, found themselves just surviving in a mundane existence and wanted and deserved better.

This change in direction for me was huge and it was scary. But for the first time in almost 20 years, it felt right.

One thing I say to my clients and to anyone who will listen is that if your life doesn’t make you feel good, if something feels like it’s missing or if you’re simply just not happy where you are; you don’t have to settle for it.

And that’s why I’m going to New Zealand. Because although the past 2 years have been incredible and I’ve made huge strides in my life and in my business, I’m finding myself feeling stuck again. And when I feel stuck, I need change.

But with change comes uncertainty, discomfort and some risk. Yet at the same time if we are brave enough to push through this barrier, we have the opportunity to grow, to evolve and to experience some amazing things. 

So, I’m being brave and I’m taking that risk. I sold my car, I booked the flights and now I’m going to see what the other side of the world has to offer…well, at least until May 2023.












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